And it rained that night!!

It'd been a long long time. Well, atleast it felt like a long time since i'd last seen you and all i had was the one week to make up for the couple of months of seperation!! It wasn't enough. It was never meant to suffice, but it'll do. It'll do for now. Though there was all that load of work, I'm glad we got the time to be with each other..I'm glad that we were together in the real sense of the word, despite all the things that had put us apart all along. It's not like these factors will stop seperating us, but atleast now i know that we can fight and overcome them at will..I'm glad that you came despite all the things that tried to hold you back...I'm glad that you show faith in me and my decisions and stand by me all the time..I'm glad that we are as close as we are..and I'm also glad because there's nothing else that I can do other than being glad when i think of the time we had.

There have been relations, some strong, some weak. Some were meant to fade away and some lasted through it all. Some seem to be falling apart and some have nothing but a thin line of hope that just binds me with the other person.. There are times when I've felt weak and then again there are moments that reinforce me. I had thought that i had seen it all, but it's something entirely different when I am with you. It's something that I do not have the words to explain, but its amazing.

I wanted all of this, but the words never came and all I did was what i thought would best describe this to you.. thinking about this makes me miss you all the more, as if i didn miss u enough already!!

Well...Life wouldn't have been as special as it is, if you wouldn't be around..

Arbit philosophy...

As i stood there, scared out of my wits, horrified, petrified....somehow no word gives the correct description of what i was feeling then, but i was sure that it was something like 'scared'. I looked down.I was standing tall, high and above all other living creatures, surrounded by nothingness but the wild winds and light.Suddenly i realised how islands feel surrounded all around by water and nowhere to go.It's kind of a scary thing to be all lone and see nothing when u look around yourself.How would it be to live all your life like how i was then?? i was still scared and it was not before now that i realised that my feet were trembling. I tried to control it, for lack of balance was something totally unnecessary at such heights.

Looking down didn feel so nice, so i gave a try and looked in the opposite direction, towards the sky.It was comforting, the same view that i've been used to seeing all my life. It was the same sky i had seen for hours together since my childhood, and it didn look any different at all..the trembling of my legs stopped.The sky seemed to be the same, even though to distance between me and the sky had been reduced so much by the heights i had reached. It felt something like the horizon, no matter how much u chased it it would always elude you, and its somethin that can never be reached.No matter how much you run towards it, the distance never seems to reduce.Suddenly i again realised the height at which i was located and the fear came back. I closed my eyes and tried to think of something else.i tried talkin and tried to comfort myself, but deep down i knew the fall was inevitable.

I looked up once again, looked down and jumped...I know its an absurd story, and seems meaningless but when you think a bit about it it reveals a lot...like...

1) The higher u go in life, the lonelier you will get.Its like a pyramid, the higher you go the lesser the people you find, and if the people at the bottom never existed there would be a pyramid at all. Everyone has a job to do in a society, and positions are always relative.You cant be the king unless there are subjects that let you lead them.
2) There is no upper limit for sucess, and no matter how much you learn and earn, there's always room for more, also i think the more you get the more you want some more of it.
3) Looking above(future) is always a better thing to do than taking a look down (the past). You can make something out of ur future but past is something you cant go back and change a thing.
4) Fear is not a sign of cowardice. It is fear that allows us be brave and dignified in the face of life's situations. Someone who experiences fear -and despite the fear goes on, without allowing it to intimidate him -is giving proof of valiance. But someone who tackles difficult situations without taking the danger into account, is proving only his irresponsibility.
5) One day everything will come to an end, you will have to die, no matter what plans you have, no matter what you want to do, death is inevitable. 'Jumping' is another way of accepting it.

Felt like reposting it after reading this from my old blog :=D